Title: Damaged Beginnings
"There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning."
This story occurs after the New Patterns and Old Friends Series.
This story mainly deals with some of the fallout to things which happened in the prior series.
Avon has been rescued from Servalan, but physically and mentally he is in very bad shape. Argus is also recovering from many things.
Avon and Argus isolate themselves from everyone. Considering these are the two key members of the crew; things are not starting out well. With all that has happened, what will the new dynamic of the crew be? Can they even work together again?
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It had been a week since
Even though Argus was the only one who had access to the files sent by psychostrategist Sester, regarding the treatment which Avon had received during his three years at the Federation Special Detention Centre; Argus had told them a few of the details.
Cally was the only member of the crew who got to see the two men on a regular basis; and only because she was the resident medic who saw to both men's recovery.
Argus was still experiencing some shoulder pain and stiffness. He had been ambushed on a mission out in Sector Ten for General Borel Reve. His captors had tortured him and nearly twisted both his arms from their sockets, causing extensive tearing. He was nearly a hundred percent but with injuries of this type, there were always residual effects which lingered without proper maintenance.
The Argus always reported to the medical bay on time and submitted to the examination by Cally. It had become such a routine that he rarely uttered a word. It was almost as if only his body came for examination.
Argus had allowed the Auron to see
The amount of drugs they had to give him made Cally angry. She found it difficult to have to give them to him every day. He accepted them so passively now; it was as if it was a normal occurrence. From the records, she knew it had been like that at the Detention Centre; except there the drugs also contained many other things used to control him and cause him discomfort.
At first he had refused the pain blockers, wanting to reduce the amount of drugs to a minimum. But they had to have
After that he accepted that he could not do without more drugs; at least not until he had healed enough for the pain to no longer be a problem. Cally could tell that he hated it at first but after a couple of days, he had become like Argus; his body submitted for treatment but that was all. He refused any personal questions and only responded to requests about his health.
The special drugs she was required to give him made her the angriest. From her limited knowledge of pharmacology, she knew that these were sophisticated chemicals used to regulate his brain function. At first, when Argus had told her that she had to give them to
What she had read had made her ill. Cally did not see how
She now understood why Argus had kept
There was only one physical area which still concerned her. The injury to his knee.
Argus was restless. He had just come back from his daily examination by Cally and was in his cabin. He had a major concern. As the leader, he responsible for the safety of the crew. There was someone onboard who posed a potential threat to this safety.
Back at Residence One, Argus had given Avon a chance to kill Servalan; and
Regardless of whether it was the only form or not, what was done to Avon was a horrifying type of conditioning which had made him little more than a puppet to be used by Servalan. His mind was forced to work on anything she had directed him to work on. It was a state which could be turned on or off according to her whims. He was completely helpless when it was activated. And from the records, they had forced this condition on him for long periods every day, barely allowing his mind time to rest. Any attempt to refuse resulted in building pressures in the brain which became exponentially unbearable until his mind could no longer withstand the pressures and he descended into madness. Argus could not imagine the horror of having to be forced to live like that; to be used like that even for a few days.
Argus had not yet informed the crew of this. They were already distressed enough reacting to
Argus knew that the sooner they broke the conditioning the better but
After having endured torture himself, Argus knew that the last thing Avon would want was to see sympathy or pity in other people's eyes. It was hard enough experiencing the weakness of your own body without that. That was why Argus had locked the files Sester had sent regarding Avon's time at the Special Detention Centre; and refused to allow the rest of the crew to see them. No matter how much Argus distrusted the man;
As a Federation commando, Argus had received specialized training to resist torture and other forms of persuasion and conditioning. But the training had also taught him that no one could hold out forever, especially not against the kind of advanced techniques used at the Special Detention Centre. That
Argus got up and headed towards the door, he had made a decision.
"I can't find him anywhere," said
"How do you know that he wasn't just ignoring you?" asked Jenna.
"Well, I just do," said
"He hasn't eaten in two days. He has to eat something,"
Jenna shook her head. Cally had been right,
"Yes. He told me to go away. I left his tray outside his door," replied
"Let's go and get Cally and we'll all make a search of the ship."
They headed off to conduct the search.
"But not as successful as you apparently," said
The two men were seated opposite each other at a table in
"Ask your question," said
"Why did you do it?" asked Argus.
"You mean, why didn't I do it?" said
Are we going to play word games now while you avoid answering the question? thought Argus. Argus did not respond; he just waited.
Realizing that Argus was not to be baited,
"You already know the answer," said
Argus had remembered teleporting into Servalan's bedroom with
It was Avon's actions when he saw Argus and
Argus had given Avon the chance to kill her; to have the opportunity to exact revenge on the woman who had used and abused him for so long; and as a test of Avon. Argus had known that killing Servalan would cause great complications in terms of the conflict they were all about to face with the alien invaders. But he had been willing to give
"What are you going to do?" asked
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