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Do you ever get to the point where it seems nothing you do is… 
3rd-Mar-2010 08:01 pm

Do you ever get to the point where it seems nothing you do is valued?
That all your efforts amount to is that you're little more than an expendable tool for someone else?
You're dumped the moment something new or shiny comes visiting, who cares if you're being abused or they'll be gone tomorrow?
But...you know, keep working like the drone you are. Your work is appreciated but just not you.
Yeah, no one cares about you, that you're bleeding too.
Because really, you're just there to work and why don't you just shut up, because no one cares to hear your side. You're just there to serve and to be kicked to everyone else's satisfaction.

Yeah, so I'm in a crappy, crappy mood. So crappy, I'm liable to bite someone's head off. Spent this morning at a job placement centre. Listening to loads of information. My second session. Oh, yeah they're so up it hurts my ears. But that doesn't change the situation. I'm going to go and reapply everywhere with a new-look resume. Oh, yippee. How about a new look world where people don't use you and abandon you the moment someone else they like better comes along? No? Then...I'll go and write some really nasty fics then because at least that won't have the opportunity of sending me to jail.

Yes, which characters do I think are more evil on the inside than good and I really detest?
4th-Mar-2010 01:10 am (UTC)
4th-Mar-2010 01:33 am (UTC)
4th-Mar-2010 01:11 am (UTC)
I value you, friend and fellow author, even if we haven't met in the flesh.


I know it's only virtual, but have some cake!

4th-Mar-2010 02:03 am (UTC)
Thanks for the cake and sentiments, my good friend. Sigh. But if only it were this symbol at the centre...

4th-Mar-2010 02:40 am (UTC)
[smiles at that] It reminds me of the Avon's 9 poster you wanted. It's more than the logo though: also the characters lined up or something like that?
4th-Mar-2010 03:12 am (UTC)
Yes, something like that.
4th-Mar-2010 11:30 pm (UTC)
Well I did try Avon but there wasn't one!
Or at least, not related to Paul Darrow's Avon!
4th-Mar-2010 02:37 am (UTC)
Yeah, being unemployed (and I'm wondering if it's unemployable in my case, it's been so long) really sucks. [commiserates--good word, that] I have good days and days where it really gets to me.

I hope the job placement centre comes up with something promising for you and makes the insulting lectures worth while. At least they're not sending you on a computer basics course which they tried to do to a friend in Europe. :-P
4th-Mar-2010 03:11 am (UTC)
Hopefully, not. Thanks.
4th-Mar-2010 06:07 am (UTC)
Oh, hugs for you and Gremlin. So sorry you're having a bad time.
4th-Mar-2010 01:27 pm (UTC)
4th-Mar-2010 07:55 am (UTC)
Just so sorry - I have had a poor couple of years, as you know, which is why I am making the positive ste[ps I am doing to try to take control agaim.

Of course - that is also stressful.

Doesn't help you - but at least I can say I know life can be tough - and give you a hug.
4th-Mar-2010 01:28 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I'm glad you're able to move forward.
4th-Mar-2010 08:44 am (UTC)
It's not easy sometimes but....

happy spots

Hope you feel better soon.
4th-Mar-2010 01:29 pm (UTC)
That's cute. Thanks.
4th-Mar-2010 09:37 am (UTC)
*hugs, offers lemon meringue pie*
4th-Mar-2010 01:29 pm (UTC)
The pie is much appreciated, thanks.
4th-Mar-2010 06:13 pm (UTC)
Soon be spring and the brighter days. Until then there's only virtual hugs.
4th-Mar-2010 08:43 pm (UTC)
Thanks. It's much appreciated.
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